Sunday Thinking

I'm having one of those lazy Sundays. I love those days that seem to drag on, but in a glorious way because when the hours in this day run out, it will be Monday... Since I ate my last frozen waffle on Friday, I had the perfect excuse to make a fresh batch of pumpkin waffles. There's nothing like being lazy and eating homemade waffles. I've spent the rest of the mid morning playing with Har, cleaning up around the place and listening to NPR.
As much as I love having time to really do nothing, I inevitably begin feeling somewhat sad because I feel like I should be doing much more with all this time. I mean, I'm suppose to be motivating myself to live life to the fullest, but I just end up feeling a little bit stuck.
Coincidentally, I was in the mood to watch Garden State whose whole plot is a comment on how easily we can become numb to life. So now I'm feeling even more frustrated with myself. I guess I should be happy that at least I'm aware that people can become numb to life and I'm resistant to doing so...
I have something that I'm embarrassed to admit. When I was making waffles this morning I was thinking: "I'm only 26, it's ok that my life isn't this fantastic fulfilling thing right now". And then I remembered...I'm 28. What does it mean when you can't even remember what age you are? It's like once you don't have enough significant events to measure time by, the passing of it holds no relevancy.
It's funny how you never hear about the quarter life crisis. Actually, I think there are 2 quarterlife crises (yes that is the plural form of crisis). One happens when you finish college and you are exptected to flawlessly merge into the "real world". The next one comes when you've started said "real" life and you realize that this life is not all it was cracked up to be. I think part of what makes life real is how you use your time and who you are able to share it with. I'm all about plans and I'm all about organization. I guess it's the Monica Bing (nee Gellar) in me. I think I need a distinct plan and I think I need to follow it. To be continued...